The end of it all

We met in 2020. Went 3 months with no issues. Until her parents told her THEY WEREN'T HAPPY with HER RELATIONSHIP wkth me That she drives over my house too often and I should be going to her more because I'm yhe boy. At the time she was 21 and me 23. She is now 23 and I'm 25. I made a joke her psrents didn't like in September and her dad gave her 3 days to break uo with me or he said he was getting involved. I told her to tell him to come over my house,, he knows where I live. She told her parents we friend. We stayed a secret for 2 weeks until I gave her a ultimatum because I thought that wpuld wake her up and make her stand up to her psrents. Didn't work. She broke up with me for real on new years eve. Me met in person on Jan 8th and spoke in my recently new 1st car for 8 hours. I have been in a physical therapy program since September of 2021 and it's been beyond stressful. I pay for my own schooling and essential living expenses while living at home. She broke up with me and now we are blocked About 3 weeks ago she made a new Playlist on her spotify, and copy and pasted our songs into a new playlist and she changed the thumbnail to a picture of her and someone kissing. The guy is uglier then me and fat. And white. I'm Spanish and not fat. I take care of myself and watch what I eat. I am self made and paid my way through physical therapy school through covid. But she looked me dead in the face when she broke up with me and said "I got tired of waiting for you for 2 years." I reached out 2x about 2 months after, and she blew me off, told me "I'm meeting new people. I didn't want you to find out like this and get more hurt." She is posting him on her *** (I had a mutual friend show me) over memorial day weekend, meanwhile in March she had told me '"I'll let you know about meeting up. It's just been a busy few weeks with school applications and work". I finish my program on Friday. And will have all the time, and adult money to spend on a relationship. Which she complained about how she never felt like a priority, snd cried when she said how much she hated that my parents don't help me financially like hers do...she's BEYOND spoiled(she makes 22$ a hour and drives a car that was bought for her and isn't even responsible to make the insurance payments while living at home.) She also told me "I didn't replace you. You don't know the whole story." In which I then got furious and told her to F off and not get in a guys car on the first date and to not use the next guy as a means to get the approval she craves from her parenrs but through a relationship. We are blocked every where.

I finish my program Friday. And I want to go to her job and leave a note with the money I had promised her I'd pay her back with after I finished school, about 200$. She had told me "I've moved past what's happened, but seeing each other is not a good idea as that wpuld just reopen old wounds" which I don't agree with, because if you are truly over it, you would have no issue facing the person you hurt because of your impatience. I also got temporary tatoos which I know she had always wanted to see me in, especially neck tats. I want her to see me, even if it's from afar, because I have had a mental and physical glow up after getting through school. But I want her to see and regret her decision. She downgraded with this new guy. I laughed when i saw him, and stared at him for 2 minutes, trying to wonder what part is attractive. He is a carbon copy of her father, just younger, taller and less fat. Yeah my ex is also fat, and she wpuld always say "Everyone probably wonders why you're with me." And my parents even saw the new guy and said "Maybe she feels more comfortable with him because he's on her level." I just feel like I'm being punished for putting myself through school, and focusing on my future, and to one day provide for my ex....but her....and her parents dont know what it is to wait.

This is the note I am planning on leaving on her car door with the money inside:

Wanted to make sure you got this and no one else. Im keeping a promise I made when I said I'd pay you back when I was done with school. And I did it. Its possible. I'm a physical therapist. 1 pandemic, 1 car, 1 heartbreak, 2 years, 3 jobs later, and 4 close calls later, I did it. Still with 30 grand in the bank. I hope you experience this happiness and fulfillment one day. I can finally do all the things I want to, with who I want to. I'm not going to try and convince you how mentally suffocating PT school is, you're going to live it, you'll know soon. You won't understand me or the pain until then. Good luck, you're gonna need it, all 23 of us did.

I hope you find what your looking for in yourself and set healthy boundaries. With the 2 years worth of all the love I had, the love I've been holding onto, all the love I have to give, and the love I couldn't show...
I need to let you go.

With love,
J&_(@N

P.S. Let S%$&@* (her autistic sister. She loves star wars and we bonded over that.) know I brought balance to the force, and that I did it. If she ever needs anything, you know where to reach me, I'm there.