difficult break up

Everything happened so suddenly, and I still can’t fully process it. Yesterday, we were hugging and cuddling, and today, he left.

I came home late at night, exhausted, and accidentally locked both locks before going to sleep. I didn’t do it on purpose, I just wasn’t thinking. But in the morning, I woke up to a message from him saying he was breaking up with me because I locked the door. He thought I did it intentionally, but I didn’t. The thing is that you can open the door from outside only if you lock it once from the inside. Yes, in the past, I locked it once when I was upset, but I opened it when he knocked. This time, I simply fell asleep. He could have called or tried to reach me another way. But instead, he just decided that this was the end.

I tried explaining, I called him, I convinced him to come home. But when he did, he was completely set on breaking up. He packed his things and told me that it was over. He didn’t want to look me in the eyes. Was fckin harsh and even asked me to return the earrings his mother gave me.

I told him, how could I forgive him when he hurt me in the past, but he can't. he said he does not care and that I hurt the wrong person. He said that he does not forgive. it was so fckin painful. all that breakup. he was just screaming at me saying that we are done.

how he could throw everything away over something like this. Yes, we’ve had conflicts before, but things had been getting better. I still had hope. I still loved him. now I’m left feeling devastated, exhausted, and completely lost. He was my closest person, the one I trusted and loved, and now he’s just gone.

Maybe I saw in him a person he never really was.

I know it's stupid, but I still somehow hope he is gonna come back.

He was my closest person and left. its fckin painful