i got into a fight with my boyfriend and now i feel lonely
everything he said to me i wont if i should just end the relationship because he hates me so much. i know i’m the problem, i don’t do any of the things that gave us trouble in the past anymore, but any time he gets angry he gets reminded of it all.
i’m just sad because i can’t share anything with him about how i’m feeling and what’s bothering me. it’ll only lead to him getting angry again and i don’t want that to happen. so i just have no one on my side to help me. i can’t go to friends or family because then they’ll just view him as bad and i don’t want that. he has friends he’ll talk to about his problems with us, and it makes me sad but i don’t want to make him stop because then he’ll feel exactly like how i feel.
i get nightmares when he’s not sleeping next to me. well actually i get nightmares everyday anyway, but i can at least sleep easier having him next to me. if he’s not there, i wake up every 30 mins or every hr. every time we get into a fight he leaves and i’ll be alone to sleep
@feyfeyfey
It sounds like you're feeling really down because you can't share your feelings and concerns with your partner without them getting angry. That's really tough, and it's not fair to you.
I understand that you don't want to involve friends or family because you don't want them to view your partner in a negative light... It's okay to seek support from those around you, even if it means they might see your partner in a different way. Your friends and family care about you and want to help you through tough times.
Also it's concerning that you're having nightmares and struggling to sleep when your partner is not there. That's a sign that something deeper might be going on in the relationship. It's important to have a healthy level of independence and not rely solely on your partner for your well-being. If every fight leads to them leaving and you being left alone to sleep, that's not a healthy pattern. You might want to reevaluate your relationship.
