I am starting to accept it
Though it's been 8 years since a close "Friend" dumped me and betrayed me, I looked at some archieved message boards from another forum, on a different website from 9 years ago. Though it would only be a good year and a half before she finally treated me like a piece of trash, I realized some things
1. She lost her interest by
A. Brushing me off with excuses
B. Giving me the run-around
C. Paying attention to other people
D. She said she didn't feel like dumping on
2. She was a jerk by
A. Ignoring me when I cut another bad friendship from my life, instead giving all the attention to this other friend. She even sent her a post card when she went on vacation one-time while not sending me one.
B. She played games with me about getting together and then when I tried to let her know when I was available but then ignored me when I told when I could meet. When I confronted her, she would blame me for saying I was too busy.
While I am still very angry and hurt at the wrong things that were done, I am accepting that she was not interested and that she was a major jerk to me. Most importantly, my life has not stopped because she didn't want anything to do with me. In fact, I have been just fine without someone who has always failed to appreciate me or let alone respect me.
@Summershy
I'm glad you're starting to accept what happened between you two, Summer. I can't imagine that it was an easy thing for you to do, especially since you were close to her. I hope this journey becomes easier for you as time passes
@CheeryMango
Ironically, I crossed paths with her and her husband on Friday while I was at a grocery store in this area. Though I just kept my distance and didn't try and say hello, I ended up shouting at both of them when they were far enough away while going in another direction in order to avoid them.
However, she decided to dump me because I kept getting mad at her while we were friends because she failed to respect me as as person and let alone appreciate me. She also was never very supportive of me. She also used. So, I ended up becoming resentful towards her because she was never there for me when I needed her. Still, I would get mad at her for just about everything.
Therefore, I realize we are just not compatible and especially since there has been tension between us for a long time.