I feel guilty
Ok, so, I’ve been in a wlw relationship with my girlfriend for over a year. I’m worried that I don’t like her as much as she likes me. it’s really confusing but she’s so certain we’re going to be partners foever and is unwavering on us being married someday with a house and kids and i’m not so confident about it. i do like her but i feel so guilty for not reciprocating her future plans. I feel like her certainty about our relationship will/would make a breakup so much more difficult and it scares me. I don’t want to feel trapped in this relationship. I love her and her family so much and it would kill me to lose them, but romantically i feel a slight disconnect. I’ve even raised the question to myself if I’m even gay (i think i am but ????). Anyways, i just needed to get that off my chest. advice is welcomed.
Even I m feeling guilty but about a different thing.
I am in the process of healing but i think we come in this world alone and go alone so the priority should be us .If we are not happy ,if we think of long term how will we make our close ones happy . I keep self blaming myself for what i have done but when I think of it ,it was my decision - Was I forced? no , Was I brainwashed ? May be yes or no .But did I think of my partner yes I did . Even if he feels that I left him all alone he might reliaze it later in his life that what I did was for good.
May be we will reliaze this later in our life that whatever happens happens for a reason .Bad things happen to make us strong and sometimes letting go and taking a decision is in our hands and nothing else.
