Independence

This is for me only, no comments please!

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I keep thinking about how I’ve been almost gripped by obsessive thoughts. I know that it wasn’t intentional. I actually have tried to “move forward” (for lack of a better phrase), but things have kind of blown up in my face. And that’s fine with me now. I am in a position now where I’m sitting with the pieces of what has happened, and there is nothing to do with those pieces. So I will leave them there. I do have a lot of faith. And my intuition tells me that everything happens for a reason.

This whole ordeal with the new person I was seeing and with my “partner” (not sure what to call him anymore), they were both really difficult endings for me. It’s shocked me into a new mindset. And I have a very strong desire to be on my own right now. Just being independent. That is very comfortable for me. It’s crazy because it’s almost like I forgot that being alone feels safe and nice for me. I forgot that I’m usually not dependent on someone else.

of course my feelings are still real and valid. But I am also just one person. There’s only so much I can handle. Or do. Or feel.

I don’t mind being alone right now at all. Not after everything that happened. I’m more than okay with it. I welcome it.

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This is for me only, no comments please!

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