overprotective husband and fwb
so I have been married for 8 years and we have been together for 6 years. dont get me wrong my husband loves me and is good to me. but he is very overprotective of me like if I try to have a conversation with one of my friends which are girls. he is always trying to overhear what we are saying and if he doesn't or can't then I have *** to pay after with the 20 question game. he has been jealous of my friends husband for over a year now. before a couple of months ago he didn't have anything to worry about. I was 100% committed to him even though it has been a few years since I have been truly in love with him. but I dont feel like I can in good faith leave him due to his health issues and the inability to work right now due to those issues. my friends husband in just 3 years has shown more affection towards me than my husband has in years. my friend and her husband have an open relationship which I am now a secret part of yes I know its wrong and yes I know its dangerous waters but I have a connection to this man that I havent had with anyone else he makes me feel real and alive not just floating through life as a shadow. but I am very confused about everything right now and dont really know what to do because I don t want to hurt anybody but im also tired of hurting and feeling like I'm in prison rather than a marriage
@adventurousEast3045
I understand how you feel ....and you are not ALONE ...... letting it out can make you feel less stressed on it ....... do you feel he is suspicious trying to overhear everything and questioning you..... do you worry about it being outed?
it is a wonderful feeling like a life jacket when you feel as if you are adrift........to find anyone who make you feel alive and validated......... i too have a person who has done that for me through simple conversations ...... i go through emotions on should i quit or come clean etc..... i never imagined myself in this situation but like you spoke of i have no real feelings anymore for spouse ........I was willing to end this but his health and some other things took a dive and now i would only look selfish in not being there in sickness....
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thank you so much. yes you hit the nail on the head no he is not suspicious of what has happened he is hung up on it might happen. he was jealous and suspicious long before anything ever became tangible and he has always tried to overhear my conversation because he is paranoid I am saying something bad about him. it seems the common thread between his jealousy and/r paranoia is when he is not the center of attention then everybody is trying to do something bad to him or talk bad about him. the only thing I worry about is not being able to have my friend and her husband in my life if he were to find out. I have no regrets about what has evolved. I have always made a decision and stuck by it good or bad. I dont have it in me to be half hearted about things. its kind of like my marriage I made that decision and I will stay in it till the bitter end even though I am unhappy even though it is not a healthy relationship even though im playing a dangerous game to be able to survive and cope. I made that decision and I stand by it consequences and all. I dont know if that makes any sense or not but it is what it is
@adventurousEast3045
yes it makes sense many are in the same boat ...... yes that type my spouse too thinks all i have to talk about is him or something and is upset when he is not as close to center of attention.... it is really not an attractive feature about him.
i am all for do what you need to do to stay sane in it all ..... if that is the item with friend i hope that stays as a happy escape.
@tougjTiget6481
thank you and yes it is very unattractive and yes I think that me and my friend both. use this as an escape mixed up with some feelings for one another and also for a sense of excitement/adventure. I feel as though this is the only thing to keep me sane the only way not to let myself be destroyed and consumed by negativity bc its the only thing that he can't take the fun and happy out of
sorry I messed the tag up
