unsatisfied

My partner and I don't "make love" much. I sometimes don't even remember when the last time was that we had it. In our friendgroup all the other couples experiment a lot and they do it very very often. I never want to compare anyone, but I'm just not satisfied. When we hang out with friends, we come home and he's too exhausted, even tho he wanted to stay longer. It's just sad. Not to be stereotypical, but as a woman it doesn't feel great to have those urges, but your partner doesn't want it or can't because he's too drunk or exhausted. It makes me feel like I'm unattractive and needy. He gained weight and feels unattractive, but he's also not making effort to lose weight.