Am i weird
I have sexualproblems and guilt. Ever since my first crush in elementary school i had sexual fantasies mixed with pron addiciton of her and in middle school i have fantasies of my friends but nobody else in high school and i get fantasies and orgasms from porn videos. I get fantasies of my friends but imagining or seeing images of them older around my age range. What does this mean i have low sex drive or bad fetishes or what. Now i feel like a pevert and should be alienated.
@Hyr349 you seem relatively normal to me.
It sounds like two different things are going on here. You are fantasizing about your friends but not others and pornography. The first one is not unusual at all, as most people date, have sex with, and marry those in their own personal bubbles. So finding someone that you know more arousing than someone you don't know, is pretty normal. The pornography issue is also very normal but the opposite of the first issue in that you have zero connection or intimacy with the porn actors. Porn use is common, frequent, and normal. The content of the pornography can cause issues for some, however the common sites usually eliminate anything illegal. The determining factor of whether or not this is an issue is if it impacts your ability to have healthy sexual relationships. If the answer is yes, then seeking therapy would be strongly recommended. If the answer is no, there is no need to change anything.
@HopeHaddingMSWLCSW the problem is i get romantic fantasies with new attractive people i made friends with i get romantic fanatsies with them. I had pocd a few months ago it was realy bad but mind stoke me had me sad because i had a fetish of few friends since i was in middle school hair and face structure. If i would talk to them now i would get aroused physically.
@tallHemlock5534 Those first instances of sexual arousal can stay with a person for a very long time. It's the first time you begin to really think about sex and the feelings can be intense. Those feelings have a way of sticking around. I don't see an issue with this unless it is preventing you from forming new sexual arousals or relationships. In which case therapy would help.
@HopeHaddingMSWLCSW do they last long
@HopeHaddingMSWLCSW i have not got aroused sexually a long time.