Bad sex after losing virginity

I have lost my virginity recently and after 5 times of trying to have sex it still hurts. Everyone are telling me that this is normal but i can’t relax i don’t feel pleasure and so do my partner. After a couple of minutes he always stops and tell me that he can’t do this because we weren’t having a proper sex.

I feel so much pressure that i am doing something wrong or maybe that i have a health problem. But that is not the case i have even talked with a doctor.

i am scared that he will leave me because of this, i don’t want to try anymore because i am scared that it will be always the same.

i am so disappointed in myself. I don’t know how to realx enough. I even don’t complain when it hurts a little so i won’t stop him.