First times
So I had my first kiss not too long ago. And we've kissed again since then and even the thought of it gives me a tiny flash of desire. I eventually do want to have sex with this guy and I know he will want to soon, as well, particularly with how fast our relationship is going. But while I enjoyed the act of kissing at the time, several days later, I felt gross. Like I was a whore or that I did something wrong. Logically, I know I didn't. I also have a lot of self-confidence issues body-wise. And I know these will be issues that will come up when we actually talk about intercourse. I dont want to make love, only to regret it later, even though I wanted it then. What do I do?
It's totally ok to take things slow if you're not comfortable with something! Things are only good when we can be comfortable with them. And it's ok for you to wait until you can fully enjoy it. You can take your time amd learm more about sexuality, so you'll be better prepared for it. And you can work on your insecurities, analyzing them, its sources, and seeking for support. With time, awareness and self-confidence can also leave you free to enjoy sexuality without fears.
You can talk to your partner about it. I know it's hard to have a very open conversation about this, but communication and sharing deep feelings can really improve your relationship. Those who love us only want our happiness, he'll want you feel good and he'll respect your times!
I wish you the best!