HIV scare
I am currently convinced that I am HIV positive. I have scheduled an appoitment to get tested in a few days but I m so afraid of my fears being confirmed that I almost cancel it sometimes. I really need to speak to someone about this because I am too afraid to tell any of my family mmembers. The worst part is that I am currently seeing someone I really care about and if I find out I gave it to him I don t know how I will live with the guilt. I have a history of making myself believe I have illnesses that I don t actually have and convincing myself of having symptoms. Please, anyone with experience with this reach out I feel so lost, alone, and shameful.
@goodCamp1035 HIV is quite treatable now, but you can't get treatment without getting tested.
I don't have personal experience other than getting tested every year. I did find this youtube channel to be really informative though, hopefully she will also help allieve some of your fears https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC7nqJb8dp_5awmBRCKUrTcw
it must be terrifying waiting for these kinds of results i have been in your shoes in the past and its not nice.
But the best thing you can do is get tested and find out what is going on best case your negative ( and i do hope this for you)
worse case your positive HIV is very manageable these days to a point where your viral load can be so low you cant NOT pass hiv through sex even if your positive and also partners can take prep as a extra precaution. its amazing how far we have come with this diseases and i can understand the sigma around it is a death sentence (witch these days its not its Highly and Easily manageable)
All the best and if you need a chat feel free to send a PM!
