Paranoia
So me and my boyfriend had sex last night for the first time. And he had a condom on and it really hurt no one finished Bc I pushed him off. But I'm always the paranoid one. What if there was a hole in the condom. It didn't look like it when he took it off but still I'm like super paranoid
@emotionjet1taylor - It's understandable to be nervous (I definitely have a heavy dose of birth-control paranoia myself!), but a ) if he didn't finish, there should not have been an opportunity for sperm to get into you and b ) if he was wearing a condom, you were protected.
In general, if you are worried about it, there's nothing wrong with using multiple forms of birth control. I used to be on the pill and am not on the implant, but I still always use condoms just because I want the added protection (and the added mental security so I don't have to worry).
Other than the concerns about protection, how are you feeling today about everything? I know the first time can be emotional, and experiencing pain (which is perfectly normal the first time), can make things more confusing sometimes. If you want to talk about it at all, feel free to reach out. Take care, lovely!