first time experiencing sexual desire & craving for sexual pleasure
In my entire life I havent been like this before. I think Im reaching my peak in puberty so Im pretty sure this is quite normal, but it feels strange and I want to rant about it. I need to let it out of my chest.
Ive been masturbating ever since maybe 3 years ago, but it was only nowadays I start doing it every day, excluding during my period.
Recently, though, I tried to finger myself and, contrary to popular belief, I dont feel that much pleasure. I did find the g-spot and though it was good it was just eh. Is this normal? Or am I doing something wrong? My mind is going blank…I just want to feel pleasure again and again. I can even do it for three rounds straight but I am never satisfied.
Ive never had that explosive orgasm (aka ‘squirting) and I really want to experience it at least once,, but I truly have no idea how. Every sources out there told me that I can reach that point by using lube/toys, but Im a minor so I cant afford to buy them (like, also, what will my parents say if they find out those stuff in my room?)
Also, Im a lesbian and often, out of nowhere, I feel like I really want to have a girl to jump me. Its a little scary because…I know Im not ready for sex but I fantasize it a lot. Now every time I jack off all I can think about is girls doing dirty things on me.
Is this all OK? Im kind of anxious.
@Hydrangea03 I've been going through sexual awakening myself for the past year! Can I add my two cents?
From my experience, yes, it's normal not to feel much from penetration. After all, most of the sensitive nerves of a vagina are outside, especially on the clitoris. Masturbation with fingering might feel a bit awkward because having to reach the hand further down makes the position uncomfortable. If you want to pursue penetrative sex, what I've been doing is practicing with a small clean empty plastic case (which used to contain a pen) while I can't afford sex toys. That way, I'm able to experiment by getting used to it, and slowly accommodate to it so that I associate the sensation of penetration with pleasure.
I've never squirted either, but I'm alright with that. As far as I know, they don't feel better than regular orgasms, they're just messier. But it's okay! You're not abnormal if you can't do it. You should explore your sexuality in whatever way feels more natural for you.
