hello my name is no one and i am unable to feel sexual pleasure

I have never been able to feel much sexual pleasure. The most I ever have is ghosts of something "sort of good." Despite what every single article on the internet says, the lack of feeling has nothing to do with a lack of sex drive or lubrication. I have plenty of both of those. It all comes down to a lack of feeling, and I have noticed there are no forums designed to deal with this, so I made my own. I don't know who will see it, or if anyone will reply, but I know there are other people like this in the world, and I'm here to support them as well as myself.

I love sex. I want to have sex all the time. I just can't feel a damn thing. It has nothing to do with experience or experimenting--I've heard every advice and I've tried everything. I've been dealing with this for four years, since I lost my virginity to my first boyfriend. I've never found a remedy or anything to improve things. It's just something I deal with. I feel like a eunich. I'm frustrated. I'm frustrated as hell.

Sometimes my boyfriend can't be with me because he feels like I'm not trying to enjoy myself, or he feels like he isn't good enough for me, but it isn't any of that. It's not for lack of trying on anyone's behalf. It's just how I am. He can't even comprehend it, but he tries to be patient. He's been making things worse because he wants me to come and he gets upset when I can't. It isn't as though I wouldn't like to. It's just a big crock of poop to try and deal with in a relationship.

So that's my story.