Advice

Me and my girlfriend have been in a relationship

for about 4 years now. Before that, we were in a

relationship with each other as well, but I was

young and I was scared and I broke it off within

the first few weeks. I didn't have the balls to

pursue that one, but I didn't have the heart to let

go of it either, i was confused and admitted to

her about choosing between her and my ex. This

was a mess, we stayed in touch after this, but not

much, we did not get to meet each other for 4

years and after that, we met each other once

and I felt bad for making her go through that and

decided to grow up. This is when our relationship

started. We were happy and good, for the first 2

years. Things started to change after she got

pregnant unexpectedly and we had to abort it

and she did it all alone as I was in a different city

at that time and wasn't able to go meet her as it

was during the pandemic and the travel was

restricted. It was hard for the both of us, she was

broken and I was broken too, I should have been

strong and should have helped her, but it was the

other way around. She's a strong woman. We

moved in about 8 months ago and we had a little

bit of a financial struggle after she moved in. I

was trying to find a better job and I was

depressed because I couldn't find a better job

and the job I was doing was physically very

demanding and I wasn't able to spend time with

her, wasn't even able to take her to the nearby

park. She made a few friends during this time and there was this one guy from her circle, whom

she started getting close to. They travelled

together and he gifted her a lot of things. During

this time, I did not show the best of my behaviour,

I got addicted to vaping and hid it from her. She

found out one day and I said l'd quit, but I

couldnt, and started hiding things from her, she

found out again and stopped speaking to me.

The sex gradually stopped going down, it went

down even before she found out I was vaping. It

went to no sex at a point, and she would come

home late at night everyday, mostly after I sleep

or maybe after I leave for work in the morning. I

got a better job and when things were changing

in a good way, i got a little suspicious and

checked her mobile late at night and found out

that she has been cheating on me with that guy. I

was shivering and shocked to see that, and

wanted to go out of the house for a walk to cool

myself off, but she woke up and stopped me. I

had to confront her and she said you weren't

there emotionally and physically when I needed

you, you couldn't spend time with me, I had a lot

of problems with my life and you wouldn't bother

to listen to those, and I do not regret speaking to

someone about my problems. She said that it

was never physical, he was more than a friend, a

connection that she felt with him and they were

close and cared for each other. I couldn't believe

that and started getting depressed. She said

she's done and I still love her and she said she still

loves me. She said I couldn't face you and that she's done and I still love her and she said she still

loves me. She said I couldn't face you and that

was the reason I came home late at night, mostly

after you sleep because I cannot fake being nice

to you. I do not know what to do, she said she still

loves me, and I realized what I have done. She

said I pushed her there. She said she wants to

move out and be separated for a while until she

trusts me back again. I couldn't help but notice

and go through her social media accounts to see

if she's posted anything with that guy. She

wouldn't stop speaking to him. I don't know what

to do. Every-time I think about this, I get anxious

and have a mini anxiety attack. She still speaks to

me, says no matter what she still loves me. I love

her so much too and I'm ready to forgive and

give up all my vices to build a healthy

relationship with her. I just need help getting over

this act of her.