Affair just ended, mixed feelings.
I'm married and I've been having an affair for the past few months. We met while in a 9 week training course, a group of us went out and I ended up in her hotel room for the night. After that we couldn't stay away from each other and fell in love. By the end of the course she was practically living in my hotel room. We live in different parts of the country, but kept in contact through text and phone call until a few days ago. She told me I need to focus on my family and job, and that she didn't want to hold me back and it would be best if we ended things. I know it was the right decision for us both but I'm still very sad about it, we both still love each other but know it can't work. I never told my wife (and do not plan to) but I'm having trouble being back home and being with her. I'm having a lot of conflicting emotions and having a very hard time with it.
I empathize with your situation and it's best to understand that your reaction is normal and healthy. To fall in love and being in a relationship already can't be easy and even more so when you feel you can't be honest about your emotions for someone else, with your current partner.
I completely understand it can be a situation where we feel stuck, stuck and where there is rarely much that can be done apart from drastically ending your current relationship for being with her, which will surely this dilemma of yours, but as I mentioned it surely is drastic and you won't maybe look at this as the best thing to do.
If it were me, I think I would also find it hard to cope, but I think the only way out would have been to have honest about it with my partner, which would depend if they are understanding enough or not. Apart from that, I empathize with your situation and hope you find some way out of this.
