A small rant without context
I cant say Im confused again. I know what I want but its ironic. I used to think about how Ill never go on a first date or have a first kiss again. I became content with it. But I also thought that things need to be fair, two sided. So when he went on a first date, had a first kiss again. While I was at home, alone. I didnt think about it at the time, but now, now that were together again, I wonder. I wonder if I do the same, itll fill the pain in my heart. Although deep down I know it wont help, I dont even really want to. But well be even and the tiny chance that it will help the pain, I wonder. In the end, I know I wont. Im content after-all.
@King8
Hi,
it's difficult, your situation. What you have to decide, really, is if you met this person today, now, would I want to be with that peron regardless of his/her past.
Nearly all of us have a past, but it can become conflicted, it's as if a part of us thinks it isn't really the past at all, but now.
if the answer isn't an enthusiastic yes, well, youu know what to do. If it is, then just keep reminding yourselfthat s/he chose you, and how lucky you are.
the pain will fade in time.
@DavidEss
I understand now, thank you. This helps a lot.