Cornfused in Like

So I wrote a book and it deleted before I could hit send 😔

So here's the revised version

I'm 32 and I just started a new relationship on the 1st of this year, yup super fresh lol. So here's the story

After going thru a miscarriage in April I havent dated since, I didnt expect to date and I was prepaid to just be alone for awhile and out of nowhere God Dropped him in my lap and I could be more grateful. This man is different from the others, kind, gentle, compassionate, open and honest. It had been great so far. However yesterday morning after some bad news from a dr phone call, that I had known was coming (but still) about a Brain MRI, (saw my results online). I was having a bad emotional day. I struggle with MDD and Severe Anxiety, on top of a list of illnesses.

Anyway I texted my guy at 10am and told him what happened with the dr and her basically reading the report and not even explaining with a brain arterial fistula or DAVF is causes, symptoms, treatment. I have to have more testing. He kinda was like you knew it was coming... then I told him I was having a bad emotional and mental day and could really use the support. He ghosted until 6pm. He said he went to sleep at 12, 2 hrs after I sent him those texts. So.....Then invites me over around 7. I agree and then he goes back asleep and ghost me again.

I am trying not to let my doubt, anger, frustration, and self hate get the better of me. I truly believe we are meant to be in each others lives, we connected on such a deeper level and care immensely for each other. He is a great guy with a great heart I just need advice on how to better approach this situation and conversation I know is needed, so situations like this are handle a bit better in the future. Or should I just let it go, give it to God and move on?

For anyone whomever takes time to read this, thank you.

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