Fear Of Relationships.

Im a person who loves incredibly deeply.. a person who wishes for those fairy tale relationships. However, whenever i try to break out of my shell to meet someone, i always get this gut feeling that nags at me, like talking to this person isn't right- so i end up hurting their feelings by shutting them down because i know it isnt right to ghost them or to lead them on.

Everytime i try to see myself in a relationship, i feel like a can't breathe. I feel uncomfortable when people hug me, touch me, or say they like me but its complicated since i wish for someone to hold me. Just about this is making me incredibly anxious. I really don't know what is wrong with me