Going through it 😏
For the last 8 1/2 years, I've been going through a hard mental breakdown 😔 I was cheated on and off again, every month, every year. Together with him for 11 years and married for 9. I dont know why I stayed so long ? Now all I feel is numbness. To top it off he ended up being bi-curious after all the cheating was done. Told me he had feelings for a dude while in our marriage. I don't know how to feel or be anymore. Im lost.
@Paradox1995
I am so sorry that you had to go through such situations. I can only imagine how painful it must have been for you to carry all this for so many years. Being cheated on repeatedly by someone you've been together with for 11 years can really impact your trust in people. It must be really painful to hear about him having feelings for someone else while you were married. I can understand why you might feel numb and lost after everything you have gone through. You don't need to have an answer for why you stayed right now. Sometimes when we are deeply involved with someone, leaving can feel much harder than it looks. It's really painful and really hard, but I hope you will be able to heal slowly from this. Healing will take time, so please take care of yourself and be gentle with yourself till then 🫂
@Paradox1995 it must have been so frustrating to deal with this consistent behavior over and over. You don't deserve it. I am sorry you had to go through such treatement. It is completely valid to feel overwhelmed through out his course of actions. Please give yourself grace for staying so long and what you have been through. Hope is a powerful thing. I am holding space for you. You matter.
Don't feel bad anymore, love yourself, and the woman you are! Its his lost not yours.