Harboring
I have this awful habit. I harbor. Something will bother me and I will struggle with whether it is worth bringing up or not. I will roll it over in my head a million times and by then, even if it was minute, it isn't anymore. I have practice conversations in my head but then have more anxiety from all my reactions to possible reactions i think the other person will have. I have all these emotions of a fight all while saying nothing or acting completely normal. I hold onto everything until one day i pop and this once small issue is a tremendous storm and i am caught in the whirlwind of every thought and reaction and emotion i have about it. Then i typically blow everything way out of proportion.
Anyone else struggle with this or something similar?
@Mx3288
Something I admittedly struggle with too.
It's the only aspect to my depression I've not managed to improve upon, whenever I have a worry or something is bothering me I've always considered telling specific people close to me but with that consideration came all the possible outcomes of what they may say, think and how my relationship with them may be affected. Especially because, for the most part, I know deep down my problems aren't that bad and so part of that contemplation is if my problem is even a problem worth sharing.
So yeah aha you're not the only one, I'd say one of the main steps to helping yourself with that is having a person you can trust that cares for you that you can tell about what you're worrying about at any time.
@HakunaMatata2k
Thank you for replying. And while I'm Sorry you experience it too, I'm glad I'm not the only one. It's always nice to know You're not alone.