Idk wht this is.. but yea.. lemme just drop it here
im done with my whole life.. i cant even do anythin tht i want to.. everyone is just pushing me down.. like fuck.. im just.. being pulled down bro.. idk wht to do..
ok.. idk since u got a lil bit of idea bout how fukd my life is.. lemme explain..
im an indian.. 15 yrs of age.. nd precisely.. 5680 days and 1 hr nd 22 mins old when im writing this.. currently.. im in uae.. getting fukd in a cbse bs mf school.. nd thts the same skool.. my dad works at... so.. he's a bus driver.. yea.. thts wht he's been doing.. since the past.. idk 23 yrs or so.. in the same school..
ok so back to my thing.. so.. idk bout all the other schools.. but in an indian curriculm school.. there is somethin called.. cbse board exams.. and tht exam's percentage determines you getting an admission in any school.. so.. if i dont get into this school.. with.. an aggregate of idk.. 85%..? i'll be shipped to india.. like.. gone.. im not seeing uae again aftr tht.. so.. im tryin.. yea.. idk im trying actually.. but then.. idk teachers think that i am cheating in some way? coz i have a boost in my mark?.. idk bro.. im just doing tht on my own.. fuck why.. idk.. there is so much pressure from everywhr.. aahhh i cant..
so.. idk.. if anyone from india.. sees this.. idk maybe or maybe not they can relate..
ps: i know im weird asf
well.. idk.. lemme say a bit more bout myself.. so.. i wanted to do fashion designing.. for like.. a looooonnnng time.. um.. but then yea.. idk.. bs hpns right.. nd my parents just.. pushed tht idea away from my head nd told me do to wht usually happens.. in india.. which is.. 'be a software engineer son'.. i never thought my parents would say that.. coz i still remember.. when i was like.. very young.. we went out.. nd when we came back.. nd my dad was opening the door.. i dont really remember wht we were talkin bout.. nd my dad askd me wht i wanted to be when i grew up.. nd i remember saying that i wanted to be an entrepreneur.. nd my mom was like.. do what makes you happy and do what u want to.. nd now.. yea.. lol.. istg wow..
ok imma head out.. idk i might be back with more of these bs.. im sorry for all this.. bye
@reliableOak5987
I think your parents want you the go towards that career field because it's a job that can make money and they probably want you to be financially stable. At least you know what you want to pursue in. Go for it. When I was your age I didn't know what I wanted to do except the things my parents wanted me to be, like every other Asian parent, a doctor or medical field. I strayed away from that and 10 years later here I am taking classes for a medical job. LOL.
Do what you want to do and what will make you enjoy work. BTW, my bf is Indian also. He also went into software but only because he actually like it but then strayed away from it also.
@resourcefulApricot962
this means a lot.. thank you for replying and letting me know about all this
