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My wife and I have been married going on 15 years now. In October of 2017 my wife filed for a divorce. She had be friended a guy that was a friend of ours. His wife started to divorce him so my wife reaches out because she thought the way the wife was doing it was very hurtful and wrong. Then in October she filed for divorce and I moved out a month after. She was talking to the guy a lot and I was talking to an old friend. I felt like my wife was dating the guy she was talking to and I went and slept with my old friend which was an ex girl twice. In December we decided that we werent going to get a divorce and try to work things out. So what I did came up, and she said she has done things that she wasnt proud of either but she didnt sleep with anyone. She told me three weeks ago that after we got back together she would go to the bar and she made out with a few guys and three of them tried to rape her. She also told me that the guy that was a friend did something to her that was very Trumatic. They stopped talking and the guys started trying to talk to her again this past weekend. I told her that I didnt want her talking to him because of what he did. But I have no idea what he did. She didnt stop talking to him and we got into a big fight because he stopped by the house and she went and talked to him after I asked her not to. She said that she wasnt going to stop talking to him and she forgave him.

Now something I am having a hard time getting pass is I dont think she was raped I feel like she willing slept with the guys. She told me they only got the tip in and thats all. But I heard from someone that one guy did more then that. But the reason I feel the most this way os because she came home one night drunk. She got on top of me naked and said I shouldnt be doing this Im married and had sex with me. The whole time saying Im married I shouldnt be doing this. I was like Im your husband and she hit me and said no I shouldnt be doing this. We had sex for almost 10 mins before we stopped. She doesnt remember that happening at all.

So my struggles are does she really feel something for this friend thats why she would pick him over me?

Did she really lay down with these guys or was she really raped?

She wont tell me any detail and its driving me crazy and I dont know what to do because she asks me not to talk to her about it. And I asked plainly did she slept with the friend and she asks why does it matter?

What hurts the most is she wont let me in and she keeps being up the time where I slept with my ex and she says thats the reason she was going out and doing the stuff she was doing.