I regret you
It's been one year after our divorce and as I sit here and think about our three years total together I get angry. I wish I had loved myself more. I wish I had focused on myself more. I wish that I hadn't let you control my career and my schooling. I wish I had left you the first time you put your hands on me. I hate you for what you took from me. But it doesn't matter because it's a year later and I'm finally happy. I have someone who builds me up and makes my world so much better. I have my degree and I'm going to grad school. I'm finally getting the friends that you drove away back and my life is finally good for once and you can't take that from me.
@Rocketgirl16
Hello there. Thanks very much for sharing your story here. I am really happy for you that your life is better now. You totally deserve it. There may be days when you stop and all of a sudden memories from the past come flashing back to you but I just want you to tell you this - don't let your past ruin your present, ever. You are very strong and I commend you for taking back your control!
Stay blessed and lots of loves :)
xoxo, Aisha
@Rocketgirl16 You should be more than happy, you should be proud of yourself. I am in the same situation that you previously were. My husband is mentally and verbally abusive, controls everything - including the money we make, and has taken away my social life and my identity. I don't even know who I am anymore. But I do know how much it hurts to be w/someone like you have described. It breaks you down completely and you feel like shit and your confidence is down to zero. I hope all that has gone away and you feel worth something and feel beautiful and wanted and loved and that you have achieved something. I will tell you one thing, you are very strong. Myself .. I hope he will change, but that is my problem.
