I wish you came back

Hey kacper.

What can I say. You used me. You told me all about our future all about the things we would do. You treated me like shit. Ignoring me for weeks on end when I didn't pick up my phone or triggered you in Minecraft. You would ignore me whenever I did something out of line. I accepted all of it cause I loved you. I cried I made drama i know but you knew I was sensitive I told you this before. And in the end you used my greatest weakness against me. You used my depression and loneliness against me. You told me so many shit things throughout our relationship. And yet there are moments when I miss you. When I just want to cry like rn. When the world seems so numb and cold. You never hugged me and kissed me. You never wanted to support me but yet I go back to the few days where you loved me or pretended to. I miss you and I can't seem to move on. I don't love you anymore but I miss us. I miss who we used to be. But you told my friend you don't miss me. Deep inside I feel like you do. But maybe I'm fooling myself again. Like I fooled myself you loved me when all you did was use me for sex and for other things. I miss how we used to talk. Did you lie about missing me. Or am I just fooling myself again like I did for the year that someone could actually love me.

Yours,

Rybka