I would like your help and opinioni please
I go to this new school and basically i dislike most of my classmates and they give me anxiety, so, trying to protect myself, i am Always in the corner. I know my behaviour Is wrong, but i feel the Need to protect myself. I was bullied in the past. I have anxiety since i was 6 and, since i cannot pay for a therapist, now i have a very bad generalized anxiety, almost like ptsd anxiety. So know, everyone in class excluded me, and i feel so bad, i already have negative emotions about me and this worsen everything. I am so tired i cannot explain. The point Is that i cannot change class nor school and i Need the diploma, hoping things dont get worse. How can i cope? What can i do?
Thanks for reading
@sociableCoconut701
This seems like a situation where the solution even may seem impossible because the problem is impossible in case of anxiety, which I have gone through and I also have had very similar experiences of being isolated in school and always being in the corner.
I say it's an impossible situation because I was there myself and I think something drastic needs to happen, at least that was what worked for me, that is that i left school, basically it ended. I would have suggested therapy but you mentioned you can afford it, so all I can again point to is a drastic change happening, either within you or in the environment, looking at your situation all I can think of it being is in the form of a person who you can find in that environment and who understands you and will support you, because you need support. You need support and maybe it's also possible that it comes from within you, by you seeking some techniques, some ways to cope and feel better in a terrible place. Because it's not possible to change those around you in school, if it happened for the better, then good, it's fantastic, but since it's not probable, it needs to be from within you. Like I mentioned before, learning ways to cope and getting through the day and finding ways to cope with the anxiety.
I wish you luck