Losing my soulmate

Hello. I’m Jen. I’ve been here it’s who I’d call my best friend for the last year and a half. Long story short, we reunited after 9 years when he walked out of my life for no given reason when we attempted to date before. He found me 9 years later and here we are. Our past relationships with other have made things hard for us. He has a hard time with commitment and we both struggle with trust. So many things have hurt our relationship, moving, Covid, families (his adult daughters and my 5 live at home children), loss of income, and now to top it off I’m pregnant. We have pushed each other to our max. I don’t feel like a priority or loved like I once did and he is having a hard time making any further commitments to me. This last week we were forced to get a new home and he opted not to move with me. We haven’t spent more than 24 hours apart and now it’s been over a week. This weekend he took off someplace and drove to clear his head. I’m losing my mind. I don’t know what he wants or how he feels about me let alone if he still wants me in his life. I’m driving myself crazy. I’ve asked for clarification and I get nothing. I’m worried, already depressed with many other things going on, and I really don’t want to lose my best friend.