My girlfriend and I broke up

Hello all, this is the first major step I’ve ever taken towards mental health recovery. I love the anonymity of this. It’ll help me because I’ve had therapy sessions as a child that were traumatizing and I couldn’t speak. I’m here to talk about my girlfriend and I. She’s now my ex. I love her so much. I see a family with her. Something I’ve never seen with a woman before. We broke up recently because she started to feel unloved and unappreciated, yet I made sure to love and care for her everyday we saw each other. I think there’s some sort of stress coming from my family too. My mother is a narcotics / alcohol addict, and has gotten really abusive with my for majority of my life. I’m in my early 20’s and I still live at home. My life I see is with my girlfriend. Living in an apartment and taking care of her every day. I want to do that and I’ve been working a lot. I work in a warehouse, so a lot of physical labor is involved. I work out my frustrations, but I still want to get better. My insurance doesn’t cover therapy unfortunately, and I don’t feel like shelling away all my savings to a therapist. I’m taking this route. Thanks for listening. I appreciate you all.