Sad

I am really heartbroken and I really hope I made the right decision by breaking up with my boyfriend

I sent my bf a breakup text two days ago and haven’t gotten a response since then

When I met him he was clingy and that is how I love my man to be we were always texting and calling 24/7 but then when we started dating, which I told him at first that is he sure he wanted it because it was going to be a distance relationship and he said as long as there is communication we will work out perfectly fine so I agreed to date him because I was in love with him already and I don’t have any problem communicating

but few weeks into the relationship he changed I noticed the calls reduced, the text reduced but then he was always calling to tell me he was going to be busy for the day and will call me when he was less busy which he did but like going to a month in he stopped doing that and I was always complaining about the lack of communication and text and he will always apologize and say he will change that I should understand that he is working and I am like bruhhh you are online on Instagram and ya not replying my text

Then I had to battle with the fact he put his phone on dnd for like a week, I could not call him if I wanted to just only when he wanted to call that was when we will talk after I complained and all he added me to his favorite so I was able to call him

bur that did not change the texting pattern,

december last year I called him and told him about how I felt and I told him I was gonna end things with him if he doesn’t act right he apologized then changed for some days then went back to his old ways

This year too has been the same and it has just being me arguing almost every week telling him this is how I want to be treated, when I call and ya busy text me and say I will call you back when I am less busy, create time to text me do t text me when you feel like because you know I will always reply you

There was a day I decided not to reply his text because I was feeling hurt. I was not happy with his poor communication skills, like before he tells me every little details but now I feel like I don’t know him fr I feel if anyone ask him anything about him I can’t say shit because I don’t know I feel like a stranger already and I don’t wanna feel that way after ignoring him for like a day and half I decided to call him then we spoke about it and guess who ended up apologizing me!!!!!!because it ended up being my fault for ghosting him

we kept on having petty fights where he will be like I am just overthinking, I should understand him and all but I can see the changes, it is really obvious and it makes me sad

Especially the late response when I can clearly see ya online really ticks me off cause I will never do that to him

i know I am not perfect and I have my own short comings but I know when sth is right and when it is not

last Sunday I decided to let go, I was battling with a lot of school stress, I was sick too and the relationship wasn’t making me happy and I can’t pretend which is why I always complain so I just ignored his texts and calls, left school and I am at home presently to get myself treated still battling with the sickness

two days ago he texted again and said he is not surprised with my behavior and I smiled that which behavior are you trying to manipulate me or what do I just sent him a break up text that I can’t do this anymore

And now I woke up this morning feeling like shit, it hurts that I started doubting if I did the right thing and my sis who has been there for me throughout told me I shouldn’t doubt my decision that he lost a very good girl that all I wanted was his attention and for him to communicate that is asking for the barest minimum

I know he loved me or maybe did a good job at pretending he did but I don’t know what changed

and I really hope I did not make the wrong decision

saddest part is he left my break up message on read