Unsure

I've been married almost 6 years now. At first things were great but over the years it seems like he's a whole different person. When we first met and even into our first year or so of marriage he was working, helping around the house, helping support our household, and we could communicate with each other well. None of those things are true to our marriage now. He hasn't worked a regular job in about 4 years, won't pick up anything in the house because "it's not my mess" or "that's the woman's job" out side of paying his half of rent I pay for everything because "I make more it's only fair" there is nothing stopping him from getting a regular job other than him not wanting to have a boss. He does do odd jobs when he can but that money is gone by the time he gets it, sometimes he will pay his half of rent but mostly it gets spent on himself (video games or whatever he is collecting at the time) he has even went as far as to spend our whole tax return without asking or telling me, this has happened more than once. We no longer have good communication. If I try to tell him how I'm feeling I'm always wrong or just out right crazy. I could tell him the sky is blue and still be wrong. I have tried to bring these issues up to him but I get cut down every time. Or told it's my fault. Since March I have been staying with my sister due to the covid pandemic, when our state got our first confirmed case he told me either I can stay home with him and quarantine or I can continue to work and live somewhere else. He considers himself at high risk for dying. I tried to suggest other alternatives but everyone was shot down. Unfortunately since neither of us can seem to save any money I had no choice but to keep working. Six months later I'm still not living at home and also not working. In order to come home I'd have to get tested and quarantine till I get my results and once I'm home I'd have to stay in only leaving to get a grocery pick up or the drive thru smoke shop of course with a mask on. I wouldn't be able to go see my family even with a mask on until a vaccine is available. I'm just so tired of being the only one in our relationship that has to make the compromise. He never sees any of this as wrong and will go around saying he is always right. I have a feeling this will never change. My heart still loves him very much despite all of the huge red flags, my brain knows I should throw in the towel. It's just so difficult. When I tell him I'm going to leave he will change for a short period of time but eventually he goes right back to his old ways. I want so badly to make our relationship work again. But I'm afraid it never will be a healthy relationship for either of us. After him having me move out I don't know that I will ever feel safe in our relationship again and when I told him this he said that I shouldn't feel this way that he only did what he needed to do that it was the only way. I know I love him and always will but I also know what we have isn't healthy and I'm not sure it ever will be again. There are so many other horrible things that have happened and I've only scratched the surface. I don't know any more that our relationship is even worth fighting for. I just don't know how I let this all get so bad.