Why! Now I’m just going to be looking for shit!

Why not just be truthful! Now I’m going to go through everything of his as often as possible to know what he is doing behind my back because now I know he does things behind my back. Should I just throw the towel in on this marriage? Or should I just pretend like everything is fine. I can’t do that because then I will revert back to my old very sexual self. And that’s not what is good for a marriage. If finds out I’m doing anything or talking to anyone he will leave immediately. But what am I supposed to do? Just take it. Now I can’t even get any sleep at night because I have a 100 things running through my mind. I just want to know it all so it’s out in the open. But noooooo of course not I’m invading his privacy 🙄😂 we are married sir. What privacy? We are together 24/7! I handle our business! You want privacy to do some dirt. Why do this to me? I could of went on by myself like I had planned. But nope make me fall in love huh just to show me I’m stupid for falling in love with you.

I feel depressed everyday as of lately. Not because souly my husband but because I knew better. I should have fucked him and kept it moving. 🤦🏽‍♀️ Lol and now I’m stuck here for a Lil while. But I won’t be jumping from anymore cars. I will get the fuck on quick and in a hurry next time I find something.