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lay86lay
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PathStep 4 Compassion hearts14 Forum posts7 Forum upvotes8 Current upvotes8 Age GroupAdult Last activeDecember, 2022 Member sinceNovember 19, 2021
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He says I’m the problem
Relationship Stress / by lay86lay
Last post
 December 21st, 2022
...See more I try to be the best wife ever. I try to give him whatever he wants, I try to agree with anything he says. I try not to nag, I may ask a question but I do not push an issue. But for him to repeatedly tell me that he wants to leave hurts. It hurts so bad like I am just the worst person ever. Did he ever really want me? What the *** is this? He has no emotions towards me and makes me feel like I am wrong for my emotions. I try to silently cry so he won’t be agitated by my tears. It’s like I’m hurting him by being sad. But all I have asked him to do is the things we talked about before we got married. He says I changed. No I’m not as happy as I was in the beginning but that’s because of the things he has made me feel like he is hiding. And he continues to hide stuff and then make it like I am crazy when he is actually doing stuff and not telling me. I don’t want him to leave but maybe he should because I know this isn’t right. It’s not right for him to say he tells me everything when in actuality he doesn’t. Then tell me I’m playing a victim. I have not asked to be saved or for any help. I don’t understand how I am work. I don’t get how I am asking for to much.
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Last time I’m ever getting married again.
Relationship Stress / by lay86lay
Last post
 December 5th, 2022
...See more I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! why is he trying to make it like I’m a crazy lady! Why is he trying to make me into a crazy lady?! I give this man everything he could ever want, ask and hope for! I have never judged him in anyway since I’ve met him. I have tried to have his back in every aspect of life. Yet once again I’m making a big deal out of nothing. I made a big deal out of nothing when I found out he was talking to other women/trannies sending them *** pics. I was overreacting when he went to Chicago for work and I found him in front of a trannies house ready to pay for sex asking if they had a condom. And now I’m overreacting because I found another Womens number hidden under a man’s name. I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! I am not a crazy lady! But what am I going to do cause this is really *** with my mental.
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He won’t communicate and will kill our marriage in the long run
Relationship Stress / by lay86lay
Last post
 January 9th, 2022
...See more He sits and stews about something, I don’t know what because he refuses to tell me. I’m supposed to be his best friend but I know he just be putting on. He doesn’t have to put on and now I know that he has probably been putting on this whole time about our whole relationship. He is right we should have waited to learn more about each other. I just thought I could trust him and he was being honest with me. Now I see that I am still a fool. I need a bottle. I can’t take this and I don’t deserve this!
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Why! Now I’m just going to be looking for shit!
Relationship Stress / by lay86lay
Last post
 December 10th, 2021
...See more Why not just be truthful! Now I’m going to go through everything of his as often as possible to know what he is doing behind my back because now I know he does things behind my back. Should I just throw the towel in on this marriage? Or should I just pretend like everything is fine. I can’t do that because then I will revert back to my old very sexual self. And that’s not what is good for a marriage. If finds out I’m doing anything or talking to anyone he will leave immediately. But what am I supposed to do? Just take it. Now I can’t even get any sleep at night because I have a 100 things running through my mind. I just want to know it all so it’s out in the open. But noooooo of course not I’m invading his privacy 🙄😂 we are married sir. What privacy? We are together 24/7! I handle our business! You want privacy to do some dirt. Why do this to me? I could of went on by myself like I had planned. But nope make me fall in love huh just to show me I’m stupid for falling in love with you. I feel depressed everyday as of lately. Not because souly my husband but because I knew better. I should have fucked him and kept it moving. 🤦🏽‍♀️ Lol and now I’m stuck here for a Lil while. But I won’t be jumping from anymore cars. I will get the fuck on quick and in a hurry next time I find something.
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2nd marriage!
Relationship Stress / by lay86lay
Last post
 November 19th, 2021
...See more I want to scream! But I can’t stop crying. I always give all of myself, I always blindly accept everything and everyone else but I never get the same. Why?! I jumped into this new marriage quickly because I thought he truly loves me. Truly accepted me without any hang ups. Boy was I wrong. I get called a because I’m honest. Not because I cheated. Not because I lied. But because I’m honest about my past. I’m honest about my friends. But of course he has lied and I accepted it. I can’t live knowing I failed at another marriage. I just can’t. My family will laugh at me. This is why i didn’t want anyone to know we got married in the 1st place, so if it crashed and burned only I would know. But nope he has a big mouth. it’s so heartbreaking that he doesn’t even care! He has not touched me since we have had this talk. This bed has never been this cold. And I am freezing. I can’t stop crying. I don’t know what to do. Should I just pack my shit up and go? I was supposed to be on the road! By myself! This is one of the reason why I tried to just let him fuck. Because I’m tired of starting only to not be accepted. Now I don’t even want to be on the road unless it’s with him. Pathetic! I had it all planned out to be on the road alone for months. But noooooooo! I had to go and fall head over heels in love with a man who I accepted everything about. Who I told everything about myself to make sure he was open and willing to accept and love me. Every part of me. But that’s a lie. I don’t know what to do. Continue to come to this bed and act like everything is ok? I don’t know if I can do that again or for how long. He turns over I know he is awake. I know he hears me typing, I know he knows my heart is broken yet he says nothing to comfort me. I’m so sad. My heart hurts so bad. And I can’t do a damn thing about it because I did this to myself once again. I guess it must be better not to tell the truth. Welp for the 2nd time in my life in my 2nd marriage I’m going to stuff my feelings down. Put a fake smile on my face and act like I have it all together and everything is fine. 😁😢 (Edited by @CheeryMango to remove expletives)
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