Watching the only person i’ve loved be happy without me has killed me inside
I met this girl and things were going good but she wasn’t ready for a relationship which i was fine with so i waited and waited and all this time she treated me like i was her bf but i wasn’t then one day she just said she didn’t want to speak to me anymore it crushed my soul and for about 2 months i have been numb i can’t find happiness in anything i struggle to wake up i dream about her and i’m so deep in a hole it’s affecting all relationships in my life i wish i could go back to the old me
@Smid
Hey, I get the sense that you must feel really let down! You were expecting that maybe if you waited long enough, it would be "worth it", especially as the way she treated you made it feel like she was interested in a relationship with you too.
Your description leads me to believe that you weren't expecting her to say that she no longer wished to stay in touch with you, and I imagine that must have felt like a shock, in that you didn't see it coming at all... When it did, it must have been pretty devastating.
Waiting when she wasn't ready tells me that you were willing to be accommodating and had in some ways, believed that the two of you would be in/had a chance at a relationship, and to find out that it won't happen must have felt pretty shattering. You had this thing you believed in, and it went into a state of non-existence, right before your eyes.
And with it crumbling, you're left with this weird void in you, where you're unable to feel things the way you did before, and it feels uncomfortable. You'd prefer it if the void wasn't there?
