Have I woshiped this into my life

Long story short my life is falling apart

My faith with God has never been stronger 

I know the foundation I stand on and I know its a strong one

I've asked God for guydence and a hint, even a small one, for what to do next

I've be through a lot in my life and God has always shown up - this isnt any differnt

Ive to God and ive tried to lission to what he has been saying to me

but now im thinking is this my fault

God says we have the power of life and dealth in our toungs

Have ive been sining worship songs that ask God to test me, to put me through the fire

Is this God giving me what I have been seinging 

Have I worshiped this into my life

Ive always prayed to let Gods will be done in my life, to take free will away from me cus I just want what he want for me

this cant posibly be his will

did i worship my life falling aprt into my life

I know it'll work out- my life is a testimed to that but when

Do i have to loss everything for that to happen

well im close to that so that wont be long

I also realize that in 2023 my life did a 180 in some good and bad ways so I know God can move mountes in moments, he did it for me in 2023

This will require a move a mountain merical and i know he is the God of mericals

Moving farowrd - do I stop woeshiping songs I dont want to happen to me? 

Im dyslexic so I know I spelled eveything wrong - Im just to tiered to spell check