Hourglass Phenomenon?

I'm getting lost in theism forethought.

Is the world an hourglass. We are here.(sand) But we will go there to reboot?(emptyglass) 

To reincarnate.. including the red thread of fate..

(The husband/parents sitting in purgatory to be with you in the same timeline again?)

Thus. I sorta feel the world is hourglass shaped. (Bringing up parallel universes)

They talk about "soul pods" in buddhism.. and I'm connecting it with people having multiple red threads of other influential people near them..

I'm noticing being forced to be near my enemies/weaknesses and my spouses unfavored parent..(that caused him much hardship)

I think I'd get along with both of his parents..and have an unfavored parent to though. (That caused me much hardship)

I spiritually feel like I connected with Jesus.. but I sorta wanted to keep telling him, I'd rather have a (Eastern) gate (afterlife, ressurection)

And I was unable to translate what his thoughts were on it atm. I'm having a babel problem where there is a layer(blurry nonsense filter) over him from me seeing his true self completely.

The thing, that may be acting as a filter sorta made fun of me.. but it was portraying like multiple people..so I couldn't identify who I was talking to completely..

I also seem to be seeing visions like a precognitive but am unable to discern meaning and its a constant fight with nonsense information every once in a while to find those visions that seem to have some kinda importance..

But if one gets too carried away in looking for specific value, a lot of times it poisons you..

Currently I thought infps are condemned because if you don't have (e) relationships and live as a hermit, you live as a martyrs in suffering and have some (of Jobs,bible) problems.  As constantly being persecuted being unable to live as a normal human, on the brink of death constantly..) but I'm hoping for my life to get better soon maybe.(unrelated to nice visions, (some visual poison by looking to strongly at cravings)