I thought I got it but.....
I thought gods system made sense... life being a test to display your values --- courage truth compassion forgiveness--- as the circumstances demand......
But-- im a little bit confused right now...
Was this test really all that necessary?
@Creamyyy
i am so sorry that you are going through a tough time.
about tests,
He is all knower, He doesn't need tests to know us, tests are not for Him but are for us.
It’s about giving us the chance to grow, to becom and to display our truest selfs in action. via reflection and accountability of tests.
:In dificulty, we find ourselves.
:In pains, we learn patience/sabr.
:In losses, we may discover surrender and trust.
Without these earthly tests, we'd never experience these transformative journeys.
i know it's hard to see it this way when we are jn a lot of pain, but once you will cross this you will understand.
Thank you. I hope youre right.
@EkMukhtsarMulaqat
@Creamyyy
there's an arabic quote, 'innallah ma sabirin' which transletes to 'indeed god is with those who are patient'.. i hope you can feel it right now. may god give you strength, my prayers are with you.
@Creamyyy I ask this a lot to🙁 I ask alot of questions. But in the end I always believe that yes there is a reason for everything that happens, we all have a reason and it's not always easy to see, but when we finally meet the big guy in the sky all our questions will be answered and we will understand everything💖 I know it's not always easy to believe, to keep faith. But those are the times we need it the most💖 hugs you tightly 💖 everything is gonna be ok 💖
@Tinywhisper11
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Thanks so much.. I hope I learn whatever Im meant to learn through my experience. I cant figure it yet. Hugs you back 💛
@Tinywhisper11
@Creamyyy I'm sorry you feel down and unsure in your faith right now. It must be hard to question something you believe.
If it helps, I don't think God is testing us. The truth is, life is complicated, and a lot of times not fun. We all suffer and go through hard times, whether we believe or no. The only difference is, that our fate gives us the comfort of knowing it will be okay. That God is here with us, and we don't have to go through it alone. We have a heavenly father looking out for us and giving us strength to get through it, coming out of it wiser, stronger and better then we were. We would suffer one way or another, it's just that we have the hope of knowing that things will work out for us eventually in the big picture, even if we don't see it right now. So don't give up. Talk to him about your feelings and doubts like he is your best friend. And let his love touch your heart
I dont feel god is with me right now. I think it was my wishful thinking that god will see me as worthy of being helped. I dont know about gods plans. I guess im okay whatever they are. Its just a reality check that my place with god isnt what I thought it was......
@sadcat13
@Creamyyy what if he is not helping you because you are not on the right track? I don't know what's your situation, just saying this as an option for you to think about that if it's related to stuff like work, school, relationships etc that you can influence in some way (unlike for example your and others health related things) maybe the direction you are headed towards is not the right one for you and you need to let go of it to pursue something much better. There could be possibly a change needed, maybe a different school, career, relationship, a hard decision to be made etc. It happened to me too, twice. No praying helped, stuff just got worse. Until I realised oh i need to leave. And things became much better after.
Yeah thats what im getting to. I feel I need to change direction. But even there - there is a sense of betrayal... why were these dreams planted in my heart?
Thanks for sharing your story. It helps.
@sadcat13
@Creamyyy what if you don't have to give up that dream completely? Maybe you are just going there on the wrong way? For example, one of my two cases was that I dreamed of being a dress maker since I was like 12. I worked hard for years, drawing, attending art school with a costume design specialisation, learning to do various types of art. And then my highschool ended and I decided to take the next step, to study scenography on uni. And it was a disaster. It destroyed my health more than it already was, I was burnt out, no matter how much effort I put into it, it was never paying off. So I decided to leave. And i have never been happier. Sure, I gave up one dream (a reality of which wasn't even ideal for me) and I decided to get a chill part time job to get myself together. I still have a soft spot for art. And I firmly believe I will absolutely get back to doing it, and even do so professionally to some extent. Just won't get there through school. I have so many options.
For example, since I quit, I did:
- a custom drawing of a dog portrait for my mom's friend
- some props for a competitive aerial choreography that I still haven't received a complaint on despite it being more than a year and the choreography is still being performed
- been part of the peer appreciation team for around 2 years, and the appreciation form designer for a long while too, working with digital graphics
- I'm building my portfolio for arranging things by doing our window displays in the store and taking photos of it
- packed the most aesthetic gift for my cousin's wedding
- tried to do some printables from scratch
- am about to attempt to design a watermark for a family member and shorten some t-shirts for a coworker
- am actively working on leveling up my skills going completely in my own pace
- I don't even think of all the sewing opportunities I will get once I have kids and get to do the masquerade costumes for them
So as you see, I'm just taking my time on the scenic route, believing I will eventually get back to it in some extent. If you feel like you need to take a different turn, do it. You don't know what kind of awesome treasure is waiting there for you 😊
Thank you for the hope.
I guess ive realised my health isnt good enough to conceive and deliver successfully.
So the alternative ive thought of is adoption.
I had a feeling about it. Now im sure marriage and biological children isnt for me. So I should stop wishing for it.
@sadcat13
@Creamyyy I'm so sorry you are going through this. It must be very hard and soul crushing for you. But yes, definitely go for the adoption if that's what you feel you are called to do ❤️
@Creamyyy
The toughest time in our faith is when we feel lost, abandoned or alone, it's in these very times we need to cling onto God more thsn ever 💕💜
Im really all shaken right now... im finding it hard to trust god. All my prayers seem to have been wasteful. god does their own thing.
@Amanda84
@Creamyyy
Hi Creamyyy - My heart goes out to you. Thank you for sharing about this tremendously difficult time. Even if you don’t feel it, I believe God’s love is washing over you to salve your wounds, especially these deep ones.
Tom
Yeah gods on my side. I will come out better from this experience. Everything is for the good.
Thank you for your support.
@FaithfulScout