The Thing That's Not Me

When I black out, where do I go?

What's that creature that's allowed to be present instead of me?

I heard this phrase a while back. Alkhul actually means flesh eating spirits. They say when you black out, spirits and creatures can get inside because you're no longer conscious.

I believe that.

Ppl have told me stories.

I believe them.

So what if I started creating persona for this "creature" ??

Reveal all the gross ugly things that version of me does. And how not a single thing aligns with who I truly am.

I have this desire to write out that version of myself. My version of who I want to be by the time I do a specific thing and then the version of who I need to be now to make that happen.