always scared

im so sick of everything im so sick of being scared i hate being scared and thats all i am im always scared im so worried ill get kicked out i ccant get kicked out this is all i have if i ever make one small mistake im out im gone im disowned i cant become homeless theres nowhere for me to go im so dependent on others i cant live by my self id rather kms this is the only place i have to live im so scared to lose it ive done nothing wrong in my entire life i dont deserve this i have nowhere else to go nobody wants or cares about me

im so worried ill make a mistake im scared they're waiting for the perfect opportunity to kick me out and get rid of me this is all i have if i get kicked out ill have no family and no friends and no place to live i want to die i want to die i wish i had the energy to kill myself i really really really do i want to slice my neck open if im dead they cant kick me out.......