where can I find a website better than this one?

Tortoise,

Many listeners have expressed their concern and offered alternatives on how to get to the bottom of the situations you have experienced. Making threads like this isn't going to be very helpful. I and many other listeners want to help you, but we also need to be met half-way. You can PM me to talk about these things if you'd like so I can get a better understanding of the things that occurred and talk about what options you have.

Honestly, everything that happens here should be taken with a grain of salt because it is still ultimately the internet. I also suffer from social anxiety stemming from years of abuse and being told I was better off not existing. But even though we can find support off the Internet, and it's a place where we can hide and navigate the world safely behind a screen, truehealing still has to come from ourselves, and from placing who we are in the world around us. It sounds like you may benefit from taking some time for yourself, instead of being drowned with different opinions from the web (granted, this included).

Tortoise our goal is to help you find a way to help yourself through what you are experiencing. We can offer an outlet to voice how your feeling, your thoughts and ideas etc. We are here for you to vent and get things off of your chest without fear of judgment or ridicule. Although we will always strive to do our best to comfort you and lend a helping hand, we are still limited to what we are able to convey to you over the internet. We can't physically guide you through anything or give you a huge to console you. The key factor behind everything we do is the willingness of the members to want help. Often times people come to the site looking for someone to magically fix everything which is something we cannot do. If you're looking for someone to truly listen and respond to your feelings, I'm always here as I know many of us are. But it doesn't mean we can do it alone. If you are truly unable to find help on this site for what you are going through, I apologize because I promise we are doing the best we can. So if you'd like I am willing to do a one-on-one but if you honestly feel as if this site isn't what's best for you, maybe the next step would be to seek a professional near you that kind physically help you with what is going on in your life. Overall I hope you find closure and an answer to how you are feeling.

There are several websites you can find by doing a search at google/bing/safari etc.So you'll definitely find some more if you are interested in that. You'll have to do trial and error to determine which one is the most helpful to you.In order to get help at something you first need to really want to be helped. Here the help listeners can give is limited due to restrictions that apply to this site, and also because ofit being online help,but I believe you'll be able to find help if you really want to. There are few things that can't be help but some can, so if you try your best to work on what can be fixed you might be surprised to see some things improving. I wish you all the best :)