Just found out that bullies have high self esteem.

I've been reading a few articles that say that bullies are smart, socially savvy people and not insecure.

I've witnessed some that are, but It just makes me anxious. 

I get harassed by groups of people when I go up town. The bullying I experience is relational. I think it's because I'm socially awkward and the people around me think they're better than I am. I can see it from the smirks on their faces. I mean, they are naturals at socializing. Me? Not at all! I honestly wish I would've just went back to public school because this is h*ll! Lol.

I HATE not being able to socialize because everyone thinks they have a free pass to be mean to me. I get called a loser a lot. Honestly, it makes me mad, but I get too anxious to say anything about it. 

I hate being everyone's punching bag because my social skills are crap. Even my parents gossip about me. It's not in the "concerned" way, it's "your daughter's a loser!" I actually overheard my mom saying that while talking to my dad on the phone. 

Now, I know that most of the people that bully me are only doing so to entertain themselves/fit in with the socially relevant people. 

I hate how I'm viewed that way. It is so embarassing! I just didn't think that high school stuff would matter anymore.