One thing

@Gentlesupporter Thank you for opening a safe space to share 🤍

I always thought that I was born with low self esteem but coming to think about it, it was the environment I was in. I have grown to become such an insecure person and so self conscious around people. One interesting thing about me is that I have struggled with seeking validation from people but in a rather quiet way- as you want people to praise you and all but not so that people could hear it *because I am also shy about that lol 😆* but so that I can feel achieved. Most of the time it's easier to notice ppl remove the logs in your eyes rather than praise you or sth. I don't know how to erase this part of me. I only have this life to live and if I waste it on people's thoughts I'll know that I'll be doomed. Most probably you are thinking that since I have the answer then what's stopping me from walking out of it ? It's not easy. I am afraid that that is only motivation not discipline. I am stuck in this cycle and hope to get out of it.

What do I think I need?

Nothing much from people

My enemy is me and I need to tell her that she is not defined by people and she shouldn't use ppl weighing scales*might be faulty* to measure her weight

She is above all worthy of all her desires 🙌🤍

I have had relatively low self-esteem for a while now. I dont remember when it started, or how it did, or really why. My family is kind and never pushed me or anything, yet still anytime anyone says something kind or praising to me, I for some reason deny it in my head. I, of cource, never say it out loud to the people who praise me, that would be rude. But anytime they say anything kind, my mind immediately retorts with things like: liar, youre just pretending, I could never be that and you know it, etc. its honestly hard to put into words the things my mind says, as its more in feeling than actual phrases.

And, really, objections such as that are no super big deal or anything. But having that constant belittling, even from myself, causes me to me anxious and unsure of anything I do, even if I know that I'm good at it.

I, honestly, don't know how i could get better. This is really only an issue from me. Just me for some reason belittling myself.

I have had relatively low self-esteem for a while now. I dont remember when it started, or how it did, or really why. My family is kind and never pushed me or anything, yet still anytime anyone says something kind or praising to me, I for some reason deny it in my head. I, of cource, never say it out loud to the people who praise me, that would be rude. But anytime they say anything kind, my mind immediately retorts with things like: liar, youre just pretending, I could never be that and you know it, etc. its honestly hard to put into words the things my mind says, as its more in feeling than actual phrases.

And, really, objections such as that are no super big deal or anything. But having that constant belittling, even from myself, causes me to me anxious and unsure of anything I do, even if I know that I'm good at it.

I, honestly, don't know how i could get better. This is really only an issue from me. Just me for some reason belittling myself.