Parents

Hey everyone, I’m in a bit of a emotional distress right now and I really have no one to go to so I thought I’d come on here and share my thoughts and maybe get some advice

I am 20 years old. I have my real estate license, I have a job, I am working towards getting my project management certification and I am in school. My parents make me feel like a burden and make me feel as if I am not doing enough. At 20 years old I still need to ask for permission to go and see my friends and even then most of the time it’s a no. I always feel anxious around them and I heavily dislike the life I am loving partially due to their control and negativity and criticism and etc. Anything I do for myself results in them complaining. For example, I enjoy cars, I try to go to carmeets but 99% time I hear a complaint from both sides that I am wasting my time. I go and hangout with my friends? I’m wasting my time. I stay home and play on my ps4? I’m wasting my time, not doing enough and I’m lazy. It’s almost as if they want my head shoved in a book and in work 24/7. And that’s just not who I am. I’m trying to look at life from a positive aspect but they make it so hard. Today I had a conversation with my father. I will admit I have a dissociating problem and a focusing problem. To sum up I made a mistake on ordering for lease signs and at the time that I did order them I was broke with no job while job searching so I couldn’t order regular ones. To also sum up the conversation, he basically expressed his disappointment in me and how he thinks I’m someone who just wants to chase a paycheck (which there’s nothing wrong with that of course) and that I don’t want to do anything in life and so on. And he ends it by saying “I want you to do better”. I’m am not day struggling day to day to wanna wake up and go to work and having their expectations and needs on top of it makes it worst. My mom on the other hand is always throwing comments on my looks and how I act calling me weak. Mind you she’s the one that set that system up, brining me down and tearing my self esteem down as I was growing up. Anyways that’s all for now, I don’t know what to do I genuinely feel stuck. Any advice would be appreciated. Just thought I’d share my experience.

Thank you.