Self-questioning
Sometimes I feel like unlovable and undesirable. I am academically competitive, but still not pursued or even loved just by who I am. I tend to switch faces depending on the person I intersct with. I often feel insecure when someone appears prettier or smarter than me. I never find any ground of my identity.
@willingPal4403
It can be so hard to fit in or truly be able to relax in situations where we dont fully trust people in it. There always seems to be a person they like more, you are lovable, you are worthy - it just takes time to find our people. Give yourself time to find that person who you can be comfortable and yourself with, dont be afraid to share bits of yourself with the people in your life. :)
It's very natural but not healthy to compare ourselves to others who appear confident and worldly and as though they are cruising through life effortlessly.
Just remember that, they might not show it, but they are just as human as you and struggling in different ways.
I felt like the more I found my passions in life, what I was interested in and good at, the more I started to develop as a person and find my highlights.
Just be kind and patient with yourself, it might just take time to explore and figure things out :)