stuck in my head.
I'm trying and failing. The time between slips isn't helping me see that I'm trying. That's backwards, but it's the reality I'm currently stuck in. I'm trying to get better and failing at an alarming rate. I'm at a point where healing hurts and im starting to dislike myself. All I can see is what I'm doing wrong.
I know that the act of trying is a step in itself, but I can't get over my own failures though. It's not just what I've done, but how much I'm messing up now that I'm trying to fight with. I'm not sure if it's because I'm uncovering the problems or if I'm making them worse. the feeling is heavy and suffocating.
the part no one told me about is how hard it is to be kind to yourself through the journey to healing. im still moving forward. pushing through because im at a point that staying in the dark parts of myself is more painful then changing.
Thanks for sharing @boanerges1 ✨
Befriend your dark side - the brighter the light, the darker the darkness… I am trying to do that and keep walking, I’m also not finding a way to fix or to improve atm, but I find that fighting it is not the way, surrender is…
One day at a time
Sending good vibes ✨
Im doing my best to try and flow with it. To except that I can feel my feeling just to feel them. Feeling something that hurts doesn't mean I need to fix it, I might just need to get to know it. Thank you for the words of encouragement.