Self-Harm Recovery Daily Check-In: Saturday March 27, 2020
Hey everyone! I know times can be scary with everything going on right now, but don't forget that you can still support others and be supported <3
Check-in questions:
1) How are you feeling today?
2) What is one thing going well for you today?
3) What is one thing not going well for you?
4) What is your dream job?
Looking forward to hearing from you, SnailPurple <3
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@SnailPurple
1) How are you feeling today?
Like shit. I'm moving out of my parents' house soon (hopefully, even if we have corona in Denmark), and my mom just told me yesterday how much she looked forward to me moving and getting out of her hair. And I kinda wanted to SH. I really really wanted to SH. I really wanted to. But I told myself that I wouldn't let her hurt me so that I could do the same to myself. I wouldn't SH bc of her bc she isn't worth it.
Bc every time I look at my legs I see past sorrow and times when I needed to punish myself. The punishments I can live with, but the sorrow? I don't want that. I don't wanna see that. I don't wanna do it to myself bc of others and what they say to me. What kind of shit they tell me. When they belittle me and tell me how much I suck.
Bc I know, I know I suck, but I don't need ppl around me to tell me that. I need them to tell me that I am ok. That I will be ok.
So that's my day. Shitty and more shitty. I hope it will get better though. That I can talk to my mentor soon, and she can tell me that it will be ok. That my mom is shit, and that it doesn't matter what she says. That it isn't bc I'm a bad daughter, bc I feel like I am. That it isn't my fault. I really hope someone can tell me that, bc right now it feels like my fault :(
2) What is one thing going well for you today?
My workouts is going well I guess. Or not. My writing is going ok. I have kinda abbandoned my story for April, bc I feel more like crying and watching Walking Dead. But I am watching walking dead now, and I AM getting ideas for a zombie story. Maybe I should just write that instead. I don't know what to do anymore, but at least I can still get ideas, right?
3) What is one thing not going well for you?
Life in general. I feel like shit bc of my mom, but I'm trying to ignore it and keep my feelings down and don't feel them. When I don't feel them I feel numb, but at least I don't feel like shit. That's one way of looking at it I guess.
4) What is your dream job?
I would love to be a vet one day, or at least work with animals in some way. Guess it won't happen, but hey I can be a nutrician instead, and that will be ok too.
Hello @EvilRegalsReadToo
I'm sorry you feel so bad today. It can be hard when our parents don't support us. I'm proud of you for fighting the urge to self-harm. It's hard to ignore those thoughts but you did it anyway, which is something really brave <3 I promise you are not a horrible daughter and that everything will be ok. It might take some time, but things will get better for you <3 I'm glad your workout schedule has been working for you! Exercise is a great way to cope with self-harm and help lead a healthy life :) Being a vet sounds really cool! What makes you think it won't happen? You mentioned that you were writing a story as well. What is it about?
Stay safe, SnailPurple<3
@SnailPurple
I need to fight. I can live with SH as punishment, but doing it for others isn't a good enough reason anymore. And thank you 
Bc I don't have the grades, and I can't complete it on the same termes as everyone else. I wish I could, but the last time I tried I failed. I know my mom doesn't want me to be a nutrician bc of my ED, but I have learned that what she thinks doesn't matter in this case. I will not let her control my life.
The one I have kinda "left behind" is an online romance between two women suffering from anxiety like me. And they have a hard time getting out of the house bc of it. But when they finally meet they learn that they can lean on eachother and things become better.
The other story is about a pandemic covering the earth turning ppl into zombies. I don't have a lot to go by right now other than I have a blond MC and along the road she meets a brunette and her son, and helps keeping them safe. I know the kid is going to d** at some point, but I don't know much more right now.
Hi!
1. I'm feeling alright! I wrote a lengthy message to my mother about my father. It felt good not because I spoke to her after saying I wouldn't ever again, but because I broke my boundaries on my terms and said what I needed to say without being rude. I didn't place too much blame and expressed my desire to move forward. I want to heal, honor my body and life, and that feels good.
2. I feel a sense of calm about me. The world is a bit brighter and clearer. My negative emotions just pass through me once I distance myself from them. Little bits do get caught now and then today, but so far I've had success. No urges to hurt myself. I want to nourish my mind and body instead, with minimal push back from my disordered brain. I'm being very careful about the pink cloud of recovery though.
3. My post got erased as I was typing but didn't press anything. Can't decide if I want almond milk or lemon in my earl grey tea... would both be a tea crime? Maybe one with milk just now and then later some herbal with lemon? Please help
4. Dream job... hm! I'm not sure. If I had the skills, I'd love to work on video games or animated shows / movies. I don't but that's okay, I'll just keep admiring those who do. I'd love to do more with film & video art, graphic design, maybe something involving helping others too
Thank you for the check in! Have a great day or evening ~
Hello @Lexloveslife
I'm proud of you for trying to heal your relationship with your mother in a healthy and kind way. It can be easy to just lash out, but you chose to be kind :) I'm glad you are feeling calm and are not having any urges to self-harm. As for your post being erased, I know exactly how that feels. That has happened to me several times, sometimes it happens I type a long one too :/ I think you should mix the milk :P Videogame designers and animators are so cool! There are many free courses out there that teach animation and coding, maybe you could try one and develop a new hobby?
Thank you for checking in, stay safe!
@SnailPurple
Funny you mention coding, I actually tried it over the summer and then totally forgot about it. Thank you for reminding me! I think it could be a really cool hobby. I've got minimal animation skills under my belt from college courses but I really love the suggestion to keep developing those skills and make it into a new hobby with coding. I may just do that! I'm excited thinking about it now :D many possibilities open up
1) How are you feeling today? On an emotional rollercoaster. It's been like this for the past few days and it will probably go on for quite some time
2) What is one thing going well for you today? Sun is shining.
3) What is one thing not going well for you? I am grieving the loss of my therapist (he is not dead, but he is not my therapist anymore). It is extremely difficult.
4) What is your dream job? Being a writer. And a counselor.
Hello @admaiorasemper
I'm sorry you feel like you are on an emotional rollercoaster. When I feel like I'm being thrown around my emotions, I like to take deep breaths to try and ground myself. I'm glad there is some sunshine in life (literally). As for your therapist, it sounds like he was a good one. I'm sure you can find another good one though <3 Being a counselor sounds really cool! I bet you would be a good one :) What would you write about?
Thanks for checking in, stay safe!
1) How are you feeling today?
Bit sick and tired
2) What is one thing going well for you today?
Even though feeling a bit under the weather, I brought my bike to be repaired
3) What is one thing not going well for you?
Getting frustrated with my own body for being sick
4) What is your dream job?
Not sure, something with biology and psychology
Hello @Madaraismyspiritanimal
I'm sorry you are feeling sick and tired. Make sure you take some time to rest and try not to overextend yourself if you can help it :) I'm glad you managed to get your bike repaired. Maybe when you start feeling better you could ride it :) I understand how it can be frustrating to be sick. Sometimes you just want to do some fun activities but then you get too sick to do them :/ . It is perfectly ok to not know what you want to do in life yet, I'm in the same boat actually. Like you, I'm thinking about biology and psychology!
Thank you for checking in, stay safe!
1. How am I feeling
I feel okay, now is better than in the morning
2. What is going well
I went to the supermarket and it felt real, I wasn't completely overwhelmed afterwards.
3. What isn't going well
In the morning I was really depressed and couldn't finish all of my schoolwork.
4. My dream job
I want to be a lawyer and one thing I am determined about is that I will not let my social anxiety in the way of speaking in court.
Hello @navyBlueberry2704
I'm glad you are feeling better <3 I know how hard it can be to get homework done when you are feeling depressed. I was trouble myself this morning getting my school work done for the same reason. I'm glad we were both able to move forward through :) I'm glad you were able to go to the grocery store without getting overwhelmed. I'm also proud of you for not letting your social anxiety get in the way of your dream of being a lawyer. You are incredibly brave for working towards overcoming the anxiety <3
Thank you for checking in, stay safe!
@SnailPurple
1) How are you feeling today?
I'm feeling okay, a little anxious but aren't I always lol
2) What is one thing going well for you today?
I had a really productive day for school
3) What is one thing not going well for you?
I want to relapse, I have a really strong urge to
4) What is your dream job?
My dream job is probably to a therapist, especially in an ED treatment facility.
@24Help1
Are you active in the ED community here? Those of us struggling with them need all the help we can get to cope and recover (if we are ready to recover)... and there's just 1 community leader who is doing so much for us.
If it's something you're interested in and not already a part of, I think help would be greatly appreciated... for all I know you're already there and I just haven't paid attention hahah. No pressure at all, by the way. Also thanks for being one of few listeners who actually specifies that you take ED chats. Really, really helpful. Thank you. Thank you for taking an interest in EDs and for wanting to help
Hello @24Help1
I'm glad that you are feeling overall okay despite having some anxiety. I'm also glad you were able to have a productive day of school. Doesn't it feel good to get work done? You said you want to relapse, is everything ok? I know it can be hard, but don't forget that you can overcome this urge. If you want to chat, let me know :) There are some really helpful resources under the "resources" tab on the community page you could look at. Working at an eating disorder treatment facility sounds like tough work, but I'm sure you can do it :D
Thank you for checking in, stay safe!
@SnailPurple
Thank you!
@SnailPurple
Thanks for posting Snail :3 hope you and your family are holding up okay in these times of crisis.
Check-in questions:
1) How are you feeling today?
I woke up feeling sad but after working out and some 7 cups stuff I feel a lot better.
2) What is one thing going well for you today?
I got an email saying that my 7 cups internship trial is about to end and found out (2 weeks late) that I got accepted to be an intern so big win! :D
3) What is one thing not going well for you?
I'm having trouble going to sleep content/happy and waking up content/happy :/ Been kinda waking up tired and sad and going to bed sad.
4) What is your dream job?
I really want to do something in the mental health field, maybe a psychiatrist?
Hello @TheAtticusFinch
I'm glad 7cups was able to help you feel better! Congratulations on becoming an intern! I'm so proud of you! Let me know how it goes :D I'm sorry you are having trouble going to bed and waking up not sad. Some people find that practicing gratitude before bed helps them feel better before bed. Maybe it could work for you :) Working somewhere in the mental health field sounds cool! I bet your patients would appreciate having someone with firsthand experience talk to them.
Thank you for checking in, stay safe!
@SnailPurple
I actually started a gratitude journal last night, so thank you for that suggestion hehe. :)
1) How are you feeling today?
I'm okay. Just sad as always
2) What is one thing going well for you today?
Watched toy story so that's fun
3) What is one thing not going well for you?
I haven't got any cleaning done
4) What is your dream job?
I would like to be a farmer or homesteader
Hello @Goldcherry2113
I'm sorry you feel sad. If you want to chat, let me know <3 I'm glad you were able to watch a movie :) Toy Story was a good pick! You said you were a little upset about not being able to clean. I know it can be frustrating to not get chores done, but there is always tomorrow :) I think it is really cool that you want to be a farmer! Not many people realize how important farmers to our society. What makes you interested in farming?
Thank you for checking in, stay safe!
@SnailPurple I grew up on a farm and I think it's just in my blood.
@Goldcherry2113
That's really cool!
@SnailPurple
1) How are you feeling today? - I'm feeling better today than I was yesterday. I can't say that I'm too good since I'm probably losing a friend for good, but I'm learning to deal with it and letting them have their space.
2) What is one thing going well for you today? - I'm getting more help here than I did with my therapist who got fired.
3) What is one thing not going well for you? - I can't seem to pull myself together. I've cried almost every hour off and on, and didn't get any sleep last night.
4) What is your dream job? - To be a veterinarian, but I'll have to pull up my grades and get over my fear of medical needles before I can do that.
Hello @LogyBear
I'm glad you are feeling better than you were yesterday. It can be sad to lose a friend, but I'm glad you are coming to terms with it. I'm also glad you are getting good help here on 7Cups :) Do you know what is upsetting you? If you ever want to chat about it, let me know :) Being a vet sounds cool! It might take time and patience, but I know you can overcome your fear of needles :D
@SnailPurple
1) Not very good. My joint pain is flaring up again and its making it difficult for me to walk. My father once again yelled at me for not being able to walk well, and my brother threw away the reusable bandage I was using to stabalize my ankle.
2) Our newest puppy has been with us for two weeks and everytime she spots me her tail starts wagging like crazy.
3) If school is posponed more, Ill be stuck at home with the two people that made me selfharm in the first place.
4) A painter. I love to paint so much
@thedeterminedpainter
I'm sorry quarantine has been rough on you because of family and I'm sorry it has driven you to self harm :( I know how hard that can be and I hope you can can practice self care through painting in these stressful times. <3
Hello @thedeterminedpainter
I'm so sorry it took so long for me to get back to you. Its not okay and you deserve better <3
I'm sorry it sorry your joint pain is flaring up. You don't deserve to be yelled at for that and I hope you know that. I'm sorry your brother threw away your bandage, maybe it was an accident? I hope school isn't postponed much longer either. If you want to chat about whats going feel free to message me :) Your puppy sounds so cute! Being a painter sounds really fun too :D
Thanks for checking, stay safe!