when cutting chicken with the sharp knife i thought of cutting my wrist.
i just have been looking at the night thinking on cutting myself... i think the shook of reality can make me really scared
its so frigthen to wake up into reality
today i tried asking 4-5 women out and beeing rejected flawlessly...
so i think that hit me hard...
@okeyyyy i was aleady feeling the cut in my head getting tempted.......help
@okeyyyy
You paused, you reached out, and that
@DeborahUK Thanks, yes , I already had been in a mental hospital when I become paranoiac. I had been taking lots of meds, and meds that gave me fucked me up really badly. I know how one simple thing could really fuck up my life for life. So I was trying to be strong.
Thanks for being here for me 
@okeyyyy
The good thing is that you stayed in control of your actions. You can't always control having the scary thoughts but that object (the knife) doesn't have the power over you because you rode out the emotions. Proud of you for reaching out for support and proud of you for making recovery choices <3
@summertimeSamness Thanks, at least on the internet I can reach out without fear of being judge.
