The urge
Yesterday night a wave sadness hitted me out of nowhere I was very confuse why it happened also i there was a video realated to SH it triggered me and i got the urge to self harm
I didn't really committed it but i just pinched myself it's just a small action i feel but i have been trying to love myself and be kind to myself but doing this to myself completely broken me
Yesterday night was such a hard time for me I was feeling so miserable and terrible i wasn't able to breath properly I'm so hurt i feel so broken sometimes i wonder why people near me are so normal how life's so normal for them
Why I'm the only one who ended up in this situation i feel I'm responsible for this but not solely people near me are also responsible that I ended up in such situation specially my parents
You know sometimes i question why life's only tough for me why I'm the only facing all of this how people near me are enjoying and living so well i envy them just little i just want to live normally like others...
@justpari9 heyy, it's okayy.. I am glad that you just let it pass and just pinched even if the urge was strong. I think loving and being kind to yourself hasn't make you broken, it's just now that you are seeing how you are and that's completely fine because it can change..you can change that.. and about why you are the only one, I guess some are just born with ability to feel more and it just makes a mess I know.. I hope you do better
Yea true i feel it some people just feel emotions more intensly
I'm greatful that you took time to read my thread and replied appreciated!
And best of luck to you too !♥️
@justpari9
I'm so sorry for what you are facing but, that's not true. Everyone has issues in life, you just don't see them because they hide it. Everyone hides their weaknesses because no one wants to be vulnerable and be hurt. I'm sorry if no one has shown weak to you for some reasons, take them as an example to never give up, they have their problems but they live with them so well that you don't even notice. Stay strong, I wish you the best
Ofcourse people have more bigger problem than me and many of them don't show it. But i was talking about people near to me and close to me if they have any problem they would share to me and I'll provide them support but I really struggle with sharing and even if i did they aren't really able to provide support i needed bcz they haven't experienced problems that I've experienced and they give me a shocking, judgmental type of reactions as it is new for them so by this it is clear that people near me don't face as harsh, tough problem as me.
Which is ofcourse okay because everybody have different lessons to learn but sometimes i hate the fact that mine is harder one.
@justpari9
I'm sorry that your life is so hard. Maybe the people you know can't understand specifically your problems but I hope you'll find someone that does not only in online platforms like this. Unfortunately I can't do more than encourage you to not give up but if there's something I can do to help you let me know. I understand maybe too much that feeling of being weak confronted to others or that no one can understand you, I don't live what you're living but I can understand pain and thoughts common to all of us. Again, I wish you the best and sorry if I didn't understand right before
No it's really alright i kind of stuck at expressing so it was totally normal for you to not understand and I'm thankful for your encouragement and support. Thanks for trying your best to understand honestly you being so kind and understanding towards me is enough for me thanks alot ❤️! Take care♡