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justpari9
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Tragic tale of a lovely kitten.
General Support / by justpari9
Last post
 July 14th
...See more Hello, today i met a kitten on my terrace i tried to play with her but maintained distance as i haven't played with animals but slowly i petted her played with her. She started following me but i was not allowed to take her home so I ran away as soon as she got distracted then i told this to mother she said close the door of terrace then again she saw me and followed this was the second time i abonded her. I was feeling so guilty I talked with one my friend she said street cats are used to such behaviour and they are clingy so you don't have to feel guilty. All this happened in evening but at night when my father opened the door he found the kitten sitting near our shoe rack (i guess she remembered my slippers and it's scent) he shouted on her then she was gone I'm feeling very guilty because i abonded her two times and i also closed the door means locked her on terrace because i thougt she would be able to jump(i usually saw cats doing that) but all that time she was alone untill somebody have opened it and even after being free she chose to sit near my slipper she was waiting for me for a long time. I'm so so guilty and helpless I wanted to adapt her but my parents would never let me my heat broke when I saw her waiting like this
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MOTHER: The woman i resent and can't help but love at the same time
Relationship Stress / by justpari9
Last post
 June 29th
...See more I wanted to talk about my mother who plays a big role in giving me mental trauma social anxiety and she's in many ways responsible for my low self esteem and limiting beliefs Today i was doing yoga she's disturbed me when i stared then in between my father did it and once again my mother disturbed me by passing stupid remarks i just told her to be quite twice or thrice She just keeps going with her blabbering she said to me why are doing such things go do house chores then said for your husband and in laws you need to learn how to cook and do house chores this stupid yoga ain't going to help you Then i told her girls do yoga and showed her a yt vid then she said but she is earning money what you are doing you should earn money too she often pressurize me to earn money. I neglected my mental health for 1 year for fulfilling her desire it ended up being so bad that i wanted to hurt myself and just die Honestly now I'm doing fine but when this moment occurs it triggers me very badly and put me in a lot of pressure and at a position where my mental health have alot of possibility to get worst.
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Irritation regarding the opposite gender.
Relationship Stress / by justpari9
Last post
 June 19th
...See more I don't know if it's the right place of post it feels free to inform me So i just wanted to express my irritation and annoyance regarding opposite gender Usually i avoid talking with opposite gender cuz they just after few interactions develop attraction I met many boys whom i helped and just showed little kindness politeness out of humanity it pisses me off that they take this gesture as I'm interested in them or they have a chance with me even after saying they no they keep pursuing me. I'm sure I'm not the only one experiencing this. For sure i have met few boys who wasn't like this at all but mostly they were older from me or from another nation. I saw this pattern in adolescents boys I can understand why do they behave in such way that's so sad that showing little kindness and politeness to someone can make them fall for us it tell us how rough things might have been for them. And one thing more I have noticed is when a female get involved with such type of boy they eventually lose feelings and take certain actions which led to a ugly end of the relationship. One more thing I have noticed is they perform they manipulate, lie and hurt other person's feelings. I stopped making male friends due to this and my hate is just increasing. I'm not generalising boys but I've experienced this many times and saw people near me experiencing it.
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The urge
Self-Harm Recovery / by justpari9
Last post
 June 24th
...See more Yesterday night a wave sadness hitted me out of nowhere I was very confuse why it happened also i there was a video realated to SH it triggered me and i got the urge to self harm I didn't really committed it but i just pinched myself it's just a small action i feel but i have been trying to love myself and be kind to myself but doing this to myself completely broken me Yesterday night was such a hard time for me I was feeling so miserable and terrible i wasn't able to breath properly I'm so hurt i feel so broken sometimes i wonder why people near me are so normal how life's so normal for them Why I'm the only one who ended up in this situation i feel I'm responsible for this but not solely people near me are also responsible that I ended up in such situation specially my parents You know sometimes i question why life's only tough for me why I'm the only facing all of this how people near me are enjoying and living so well i envy them just little i just want to live normally like others...
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The duality within us...
Journals & Diaries / by justpari9
Last post
 May 29th
...See more I wonder why I'm so complex and contradicting Today i stalked many of known people on social media and wondered why I wasn't like them and ofc i compared a part of me criticised,judged myself alot i felt so behind. The conclusion after doing this was that i hate myself I'm such a broken and default piece which just sometimes wants to disappear and be non existent But a part of showed me compassion a part of me accepted me whenever I feel broken I don't how magically this part of me appears whenever I'm on verge of breaking down this part of me made suffering horribly beautiful. This part of me made me feel greatful for all the negativity and hardships I faced in life...i alalchemised this part of me through these experiences. And so did you! You have also gained something that u aren't aware about and maybe you are but just ignoring it So i want you all to know the challenges, hardships everything you are navigating in life is only transforming you making you a better version of yourself the things that you are going through is just a phase not your whole and this shall pass as well so enjoy each of bit...♥️
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Just trying to be Raw!
Depression Support / by justpari9
Last post
 May 29th
...See more Uhmm i just want myself to be unfilter/Real day by day it is becoming hard for me to live with a adaptable behaviour i adapt people's vibe, energy and try to give them what makes them happy i spent my so much energy on making me people feel special, valued, cared but it is just getting hard for me to keep up with this when you don't receive those things it's not that people don't try to put same efforts but most of the time they just fail to understand me and give me the support i want that is why I just started shutting off my emotions now i can't express even being vulnerable feel like a chore, responsibility or burden. I was thinking suppressing it is not gonna be helpful and will make mental health worst but talking with family, friend is not a option anymore they can't understand my situation maybe bcz they are immature they don't react carefully and also in the way i want. Talking to listener?not a good idea for me I feel I have to put a act now matter with whom I'm talking there's just something inside me that make me feel I have to please everybody I'm afraid of hurting someone even 1% by my actions human interaction just seems not an option for me currently. I'm trying other way and posting thread is one of them Thankyou for giving me your precious time by reading this ♥️
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Wanted to vent out about my breakup
Relationship Stress / by justpari9
Last post
 April 11th
...See more So recently my ex broke up with me due to commitment issues he wasn't giving me time and wasn't responding properly to my text I send him my photos in that also he didn't reacted much his reactions replies felt formality to me I became angry from him hoping that he would change his behaviour but he said he feels our relationship is feels forceful to him i told yea it bcz we don't talk to each and and we don't have a bond i said if you give me even 10mins quality time we can fix it but said that's the problem he said i can't give u time i said see I'm very serious about u date me only if you can enough effort to make this rltionship work he said he is confuse then i said I'm dating with the intention of marrying you the moment he heard he said he want breakup you are too serious for me and you are being serious with the wrong perosn I have so many bad qualities I'm not good enough for you so i said we will work on this together we will try slove each and every problem and tried to convince him alot but very easily he gave up i wrote many paragraphs to him but his replies very were very maybe he did it intentionally usually he don't talk like this I was in realtionship with him for 6 months then we broke up but we both wanted to patchup but bcz of some issues i didn't patched up but the regret due it was killing me i grived for him ever day finally after 2.5 years i decided to patchup and he agress but he changed alot so did I but after 2 months due to all of the issues mention above we broke up and again i losed him the pain is unbearable the pain is just same like the first time I felt after losing him it's Just unbearable i feel it's end of the World I don't know if i would be able to ever move on or not.... Thanks alot for reading
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Be persent :⁠-⁠)
Anxiety Support / by justpari9
Last post
 March 31st
...See more Hey, I know there are lot of things in our day to day life that becomes overwhelming for us some times doing a small task feels a huge work i want to you all to know it's okay to feel like that just take a deep breathe and look at the beauty of nature and be present you will really feel good trust me! And also motivated to do work maybe Take care and stay strong warriors!♥️
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