Who here self harms
Today I relapsed. I had a year clean but I'm going through allot right now and my boyfriend left his knife in my car on accident. I couldn't help it
Nothing to be ashamed of. Relapse happens. Seek support and keeppositive people around you.
I have a tendency to relapse after three months, however this was one of my longer streaks and it was seven months. I was really proud of myself, but then this week my car blew up on the highway and I found out I could be pregnant and that my boyfriend was robbed and that he may not even really like me. Things have been to hectic and my mind was a swirl so I made the wrong choice yet again. Now it's another thing I have to hide and be ashamed of.
Don't be ashamed of it, darling. Instead, be proud of yourself for every time you didn't self harm. I know how hard it is, I'm a cutter too, but don't make yourself feel bad about it. You needed something to calm you down, we know it's not the best way but just don't blame yourself.
Maybe try using skills the next time you feel the urge to cut. And you shouldn't hide it. If your boyfriend knows, maybe try to tell him. Make him understand. And if he doesn't understand or even dares to blame you, I'm sorry to say that he is an asshole. If he does so, you certainly deserve better.
Thank you everyone who posted in this thread, it is really brave that you have shared and are supportive. Relapsing is never easy, but we are all here for one anotherto encourage each other in our journey towards recovery. I would like to ask everyone to check our Self-Harm Support Communityif you are interested. Also if you feel like having a 1-1 conversation with a listener, you can browse them here, we have a self-harm category.
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Just relapsed for the first time after being clean for 6 months. Not sure what to do now. Guess im just back to square one.
I self harm a lot. And self-harming isn't just cutting and burning, but some stupid kids don't understand it. Whatever. I harm myself in any way there is to harm yourself.
This pains my heart to read.
You will never deserve to feel all that pain. I really hope things get better for you soon, darling.
hello everybody today i will confess about my self harm i do to my self
i am quiteyoung and i self harm i started small and eventuly it consumed me now i cant stop and i have big urges to self harm i started to recently burn my arm
also i thaught i would never in my life self harm because i thaught it was stupid or dum but now its not dum now i know why people self harm it releaves the stress and the pain you hide every day its a way of showing how much your hurt
I hurt myself because I deserve it, I have gashes on my face, I starve dehydrate myself, and yesterday I poisoned myself with pills, pain helps to focus me when I dissociate, and many times I just feel like punishing myself, I most likely deserve it
thats how i feel i feel that i deserve the pain
You will never deserve to feel pain, sweetie.
I cut again today... it makes me feel so in control. Sometimes I just need a little reminder that I'm not worth it. Why is life so unfair? ?
i SI, cut, it helps to stop the crazy in my head. its like total relief afterwards. i cant really explain it
I've self harmed for three years
I am really hoping things get better for you soon, love.